Sunday, February 6, 2011
one more time one more time one more time
dont make everything sound so great when you dont have the ability to make everything as great. it's plain disgusting and i rly dislike it. n i rly hate double standards.
i can forget. i think i did it. i think im strong. cuz whn i told pam n char tdy, i dont feel anything. the same empty feeling i had whn i told bitch n val n hj. the initial calmness. i rmb i only started to get sad whn everyone showed concern. those ppl who cared abt me made me cry. those ppl who worry for me touched my heart. i cried because i felt loved. the person who dont care, why shld i? dont be silly girl, tears r precious. i'll only rmb good things, like i always do. i thought i was rly damn stupid. but, now i know, it wld be even more stupid to let others make me feel so. im not. because i was smart enough to walk away and i'll be proud of myself.
omgggg huijing is sooooo mean!!! i always think my cousin quite good looking lehhh. she say until damn meannn wlao i damn sad ttm can-.= anww i just showed val, she say he is hot! HAHAHA! i think me n val have similar taste in guys! HAHA!
tdyy is awesome!!! was at subway w pam n char!:DD thn sis came so late! wlao who was the one who ask me to die oso must go end up take ur own sweet time! TSKK!! i love bridge!! BRIDGE IS SO FUNNN!! daidi oso! hahaha tdy quite lucky oso! no di oso can winn!:DD hohoho. i wish i can be a v light kid and slide to awesome region, but can i even get into the slide-.= dno, n dont wna try! HAHAH! i have new gauge abt height after standing next to sis tdy. omg. i tiptoed/stand higher oso dont look as tall omgg. hahaha stalkerz, i love you guys!!!
i think im back to my old self again. haha. the strong-enough-wont-let-ppl-bully-me self.
1) tdy at tamp inter, i queued for my bus3. thrs this gap thrs no sitting bar to rest on [the turn part] so i didn move thr n stayed a little behind. thn this mother bring her whole family, tskk me n say excuse me n squeeze past me. if it's one person i wont mind. a family of 6 just cut my queue? wtf? guess wht i did. i walked out of the line. went infront. waited the whole queue of ppl to get up. cut right infront of her n boarded the bus.
2) otw to grandpa's house sth happened too. im shocked at wht i did too. didn know i can be so.. dno how to describe. strong? as in not physically tht strong..
3) i dont eat alot now. past the eat n eat n eat cuz i bs period. now im back to 1 or 2 meals a day -.=
dno wht else. haha! will update more next time~
nite stalkerz:DD
char say my hair look like bandit! RLYYY MEHHH! HAHAHAH!!
[anthony neely- 藏起來]
i need sth exciting and break this stupid routine. i feel like a machine, empty n devoid of emotion.
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