Thursday, July 22, 2010
happy, or not, perhaps, probably, i think so.$BlogItemTitle$>

when do i get to smile, from the bottom of my heart? lyk tht.
im not even sure. tdy's chrystal lesson, we need do some stupid quiz thing. i cnt even answer some rly simple ques. i wonder whts wrong with me too. juz when i thought i lost my natural ability to cheer myself up, i mange to plaster a smile again. so as to keep u unworried, so as to keep u happy. tht smile was so plastered, i felt lyk a liar. i feel bad for making ppl ard me worried, cuz i wasn smiling. so i have to keep smiling isn it? i juz have to keep it on my face, cuz its tooooo obvious, when im not. i needa do sth abt it.
my two rly good buddyz bdae coming up! haha! these are happy things tht keep me going. i rly love my mj frens n jie mei i've made. i rly found rly awesomez frenz. if ANYONE tries to sabotage this, i'll do anything to defend myself. n im rly serious. no use scolding u a million fuck (in my mind) n (picturing myself to) slap u. try me, n you'll be soo sorry(:
im so not myself recently. i needa fine tune myself.
SAT, JEANNE LAY:DDD
SOMEONE MAKE ME HAPPY PLSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSSS
5:48 AM